Monday, July 12, 2010


Have you ever seen the movie "The Shawshank Redemption"?  It was Isaac's favorite movie, the first movie we ever watched together, and has become one of my favorites.  I never actually asked Isaac why he loved that movie so much.  I knew he liked the characters and the one-liners in the movie.  I knew his favorite quote came from that movie (Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things.).  But it wasn't until recently that it really hit me how very much that movie is about hope.  I'm sure some of you are thinking "Um...duh, we knew that all along."  Humor me, ok? 

Do you know what the last words of that movie are?  I HOPE.  Isaac had such amazing hope.  He loved to share it with others, and remind me of it when times got tough.  I love the last lines of the movie.  I like to think that if Isaac could choose a movie quote to say as he crossed from earth to Heaven, it would be Red's words:  "I am so excited I can barely sit still or hold a thought in my head. I think it is the excitement only a free man can feel.   A freeman at the start of a long journey whose conclusion is uncertain. I hope I can make it across the border. I hope I can see my friend and shake his hand. I hope the Pacific is as blue as it has been in my dreams...I hope."

This movie has been on my mind a lot lately.  My favorite line of the movie is "Get busy living, or get busy dying." and everytime I start to mope around or throw myself a pity party, I hear that line in my head.  I know that's exactly what Isaac would say to me.  He'd say  "Jess - get busy living!  You'll have plenty of time to talk to me when you get to Heaven!  Stop moping around and get busy telling people about Jesus, because Heaven is fantasmatical!"  (He made that word up)
So with that all being said, I'm reworking my blogs a bit.  I find that I want to share more about my day-to-day life, and the grief is not at the forefront of my life any more.  I'm not going to completely stop writing on this blog, but just don't expect to see much here.  I've renamed my "The Space Between" blog.  Go visit and check out its new name...I think you'll like it.

Thank you for all of your kind messages and encouragement.  Thank you for letting me be open and honest, and share my heart with you all - broken and healing.  Expect me to keep posting at the other blog about what God continues to do in my all things random, DIY, crafting, cooking, and otherwise interesting to write about.  I hope you'll follow me there!


  1. I need to watch that movie!

  2. oh, dear friend. I am a crafter and have a craft blog and that is how I found your craft blog( I will comment on a cute wreath I saw) but I wanted to tell you how much I appreciate you telling your story. I am too a widow and became one at 30. I was married 2 years. I know the pain of letting go and saying goodbye but also know the joy of knowing we will be together again. That was 4 years ago and now I am remarried (only a month) and I could not be happier. My heart is full again and he is remembered all the time. My new husband has given me hope again and 4 great kids to love. The kids me and my husband could not have. The same year he passed, we lost our baby and buried our baby. I had no idea 6 months later my husband would be right beside our son. There is joy in the journey. I love that your hubby loved birds. My husband and I lived in Utah and in our small garden that i loved so much, would 2 cardinals (red birds) come and visit me and sing. I loved it and we affectionately called them Mr. and Mrs. Redbird. When my husband knew he was dying he said, we are like mr. and mrs. redbird. When you see one around you, know I am checking in on you. When I met my new husband, we went to a mountain near where we live and ate pizza. It was like a 1st date and out of no where a red bird was singing and then I saw it. I knew then that my dear husband was happy for me for moving on and finding love. Heavenly Father and my Lord Jesus have carried me through and you too. Email me anytime. Visit my blog.
    i keep my blog private in that I don't mention my personal life, just crafts. Love to you!!! Dee

  3. I am very sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you.

  4. Jess, if you're up for it, I'd love to interview you for my site ( I am a true believer that we so often take our lives and spouses for granted and assume they will always be with us. But we don't consider how no one is promised tomorrow and your story brings that message home. If you're interested, please email me at or yo can chat with me at Thanks, Jess!

  5. Dear Sister in Christ,
    It was such a blessing to come across your site. Don't know how I ended up here, but am glad I did. Further down this road of life, the Lord will be using what you have been through in a very special way, I am sure of it. And your hubby will be smiling down at you! All for Him, Jo Ann

  6. I nominated you for a “lovely blog award” for your courageous and honest expression of loss and pain…and the beauty you have found therein. See my page to accept.

    Bless you. Psalm 121.